I can't sleep tonight!

I can't sleep tonight.

Just like I couldn't last night.

the feeling of being lost... of losing you.

Every time I close my eyes, a strange, aching feeling grips me Even when I try not to think about it, the nightmares find me. Nightmares of you hurting me in ways I never imagined, cheating... shattering me beyond repair. It freaks me out. Leaves me cold, numb, like I'm right back at the place I started alone and broken. I don't know how to explain this weight. It's too much. Too heavy for my chest, too loud for my silence.

I don't want these dreams.

Not tonight.

Not tomorrow.

Not ever.

I just want to let this go.

I want to breathe again without feeling like everything inside me is cracked.

Because every time I think of it, the numbness wins. The rain outside is pouring

each drop feels like a scream in my ears.

The silence feels deafening.

I cannot sleep tonight...