A Way Out

Silence creeps on back, it

Numbs all my fears

Someone tell me I'm okay

I built up some reason, but

My heart had no will

The better part of me couldnt stay

Emotions swell like a balloon, it

Constricts the surrounding air

I dont even know who I am

The summer feels so cold, and

Winter no longer warms the soul

Living doesnt feel like my friend

Its not like I want to

I want to find my way through

The bottom feels so far down

Where's the way out?

When you look at me, do you see

A glimmer of hope

Or the trouble in my eyes?

The light I once cherished, now

Withered with age

Hope fell out of sight

Even around those I love, I

Feel so numb

I wish it wasnt so

Maybe I dont feel deserving, or

Maybe its my disease

I dont even know

I dont even know

But its not like I want to

I want to find a way through

And to feel myself again

If I could find a way out

Whats ahead of me, in

The next several years?

Where am I to go?

Will you miss me if I left, or

Forget I ever was?

I dont even know

I dont even know