I lay here wondering...

I lay here wondering.

Wondering who I am,

Wondering why I feel the way I do,

Wondering why I feel so misunderstood,

wondering why I feel so used by everyone,

Wondering why I feel so hated,

Wondering why I feel so alone,

Wondering why I´m even here, 

Wondering why I feel so discouraged, 

Wondering why I feel so broken,

Wondering why I feel so betrayed.

wondering why I don't feel happy anymore.

I lay here wondering what my purpose is,

I lay here wondering if this is all just a dream,

I lay here wondering if I´m even real.

I lay here wondering.

I lay here wondering if I'll ever feel free,

I lay here wondering if this is all just a game,

I lay here wondering if I'll ever feel like I´m not suffocating.

I lay here wondering. 

wondering if I´ll ever stop feeling like this.

wondering when I´ll be back to normal,

wondering when I´ll feel safe again,

wondering when I´ll feel real again,

wondering when I´ll feel worthy again,

wondering when I´ll feel free again,

wondering when I´ll feel myself again,

Wondering when I´ll feel encouraged again.

I lay here wondering, wondering if I´ll ever stop wondering.