The Shadow Of An Innocent Heart

in a house of laughter, where the walls can't hear

in a house full of love, but I'm frozen in fear

The sweet sounds of laughter fade like stars in the distance

I know I am loved, but it feels out of reach

Mommy says I'm a treasure.

Daddy says I'm his light

But the weight keeps pulling me deep into the night

I don't want to be heavy 

I don't want to break their heart 

But in my little heart, it's a storm, and they just see the rain. 

I wanna fly to the skies up above

where the pain can't reach me and I feel the love

Only six years in, and I can't imagine the years yet to come 

wishing on the stars 

and whispering to the moon

longing for the answer they can't whisper back

I see the smiles on their face, but their smiles seem to lack

I'm stuck in the silence, just alone with my thoughts

This is the one thing where no one is at fault

Mommy says I'm a peach

Daddy says I'm his life

The weight is too much, I'm being dragged through the night

I'm breaking their heart

and it's shattering mine

My poor little heart, I'm losing it in the storm

They seem to think I'm lost in the rain

I just want to fly in the skies up above

where the pain can't reach me and I feel the love

Only ten years in, and I feel so out of place

I want to join the angels 

leaving without a trace

Maybe in the morning I'll find my way to peace

in a world where the dreams don't fade and all my fears release

I hear the whispers of the world up above

where the pain can't reach me. And all I feel is love

to a place where I can smile way up in the sky

Maybe this is the place I can say goodbye

I'm flying in the skies way up above 

where the pain is gone and the love is strong

14 years in, I think I'll stay 

to see the storm through

The weight is heavy, but I'll make due

This isn't for me, it's for you. 

Wishing on stars

and whispering to moons

Eighteen years, now in place

not having to fly 

no matter how broken my poor little heart

Flying is easy when you just take part

don't whisper

nor wish

When life can be so rich

Take it from the girl who wished and wished

Living is worth it if you commit.