13 questions

13 questions that I ask myself

Was it worth going through hell?

Trying to preserve our relationship

Fighting for something that I'm not to sure exists

Something that feels so one sided

Fighting for what you believe in

Then losing it all

Struggling to win

At what cost?

Here I am older but not wiser

Still looking for closure from someone I used to admire

Who ignores my own wants and desires

Do I have to suffer to be who you want as a daughter?

Someone with fake words and forced laughter?

Am I just a lamb for slaughter?

Is my life that worthless?

Is to serve my only purpose?

I think I've messed this up

Am I being too loud?

Am I not being loud enough?

How can I make you proud?

I can't tell if the flames are going up or down

Can't tell the difference between being silent or loud

Are you ashamed or proud?

Is it too soon or too late now?

Can I still turn this around?

Taught me honesty but not trust

Taught me tolerance not love

To me, it seems this is true

Like the only thing I'm good at is being used

It's not your fault, you don't have a clue

That all I've ever wanted was validation from you