Why do I Miss Him?

  Why Do I Miss Him? 

God, why do I miss him? 

He’s an ordinary boy. 

Nothing so special, 

So why do I care? 

When he crosses my mind, 

I remember the day. 

We played capture the flag,  

He made me smile some way. 

I said, “You’re weird.” 

He said, “Thank-you.” 

How could I forget, 

The smile on his face. 

It hurts me to remember, 

I never said goodbye.  

So afraid I was, 

Of what others would think. 

Many nights I pray, 

That God would guide him.  

Give him what he’s dreamed of, 

And that he would not forget me. 

I have all these memories, 

All tucked in my mind. 

But still the question stands, 

Why do I miss him? 

Maybe because he was sweet, 

He treated me right. 

I could be myself with him, 

Didn't have to wear a mask. 

I thought it was a crush, 

Now I wonder if it is something else.  

He lives across the ocean, 

But yet I still think about him. 

I know people who think, 

That we go together. 

We could make a match, 

 That could work out someday. 

Other people say that, 

He is too old for me. 

Well, they can say whatever, 

But I will still miss him.