My Invisible Agony

My body spasms are getting worse every single day

I am having to take more Diazepam each day because they are getting so bad, incontrollable and painful

I can’t even enjoy my life vulnerability, is not worth to play

Anymore, I can’t be happy about my horrible life, I do try make it seem as if it’s wonderful

To my disbelief, my fake smile can fool you into believing I am having fun

But you don’t know I am fooling you how I am grimacing in my pain

I wish that I was in hot weather to soothe my agony in the heat of the sun

As soon as my eyes are open, another avalanche of tears starts pouring again

Every morning I wake up, feeling like I am in total despair in my own little hell

My muscles are constantly hurting from they are continuously hurting from contracting

I am so tired of being sore from my muscles spasms, can’t you even see or tell

I want it to stop because I’m so sick of this pain. I can’t even deal with no good, doctor discussing

Discussion with me about my pain, over the phone it won’t solve my physical issues

This pain is permanent and a mental struggle to daily overcome it

All the alone, I cry silently in my room, I wipe tears away with my tissues

All of my agony, my twisted thoughts and my emotions, this is increasingly shit