What remains, lessons learned

What was I supposed to do ?

When everything that I’ve been through 

Was entertainment to you?

I won’t blame it on God

I knew well he had no hand in it

These wounds were made by your scheme

Heaven forbid, hell give in

Don’t know how to swallow this well-played betrayal

Tell me, should I forget it all?

When my heart still trembles ?

When my soul refuse silence ?

There’s a darkness in me now

Rising not to destroy, but to learn

To remember what you did

Wanting you to feel

The weight of the sin you left

I was innocent once 

I fell to hard, too fast

Call it damnation

I call it believing 

Now I stand divided

Between peace and chaos

I want revenge

But long for salvation

Anger

Quietly climbing

Burning

How can I endure ?

You remain in these lines

That’s evidence

I cannot close my eyes

While your shadow still breathes in my innerverse 

You should never have come to me

If you didn’t want to earn

The understanding of regret

As it steeped in your name

So I close this door

In finality 

I chose a path

Back to the very me

Away from the undeserving you

And before I go

Before the curtain falls

Let the world remember

The good that I tried to keep

Longer than you warranted