Tranquility

There is something wrong with me. 
Sometimes my brain won’t be still even when it’s supposed to be. 
Alcohol may stun it for a bit. 
Then it reawakens to a synapses fit. 
Why won’t it just be still? 
It is my mind, it should conform to my will! 
I don’t understand this inner turmoil. 
The more I fight the more it boils.