Only In My Dreams

Not another spasmodic episode again

Trying hard to not make a humongous deal of it

All the time I smile, it just out of my spasms and I feel insane

At least I am able to write poetry in my discomfort and shit

I am hurting, so every single spasm is getting a little bit worse than before

I have to smile throughout these spasms of the whole of my body

I will overdose if I any more medication. I am going to be very tender and sore

tomorrow. I have to power through it, this horrible time for being embody

I panic a lot at this moment of anxiety and agony but I’m still trying to be positive

With my lovely big sister by my side, she makes me feel better and alright

You know what type of energy and emotionally my heart’s content is coming through negative

My lovely big sister is here to support me, she has made everything much more bright

With my big sister by my side,  giving her absolute support and encouragement

I am always okay with her being here with me as loving supporting me

Through with my problems, I wish her kindness and happiness to make them into edible supplements

Those are what can in the real life. Intead happen in my dreams