Faded Me

In the dead of night, 

only the moon sees 

my unwanted side, 

the lonely in me. 

She stays tucked deep

so no one knows

my feelings I hide

as a sacrifice. 

Repercussions, 

not reciprocation,

I'll never understand 

emotional violation. 

Stuck in my head 

with so many thoughts, 

like an indentured servant, 

my happiness never bought. 

Cinderella the maid,

my fairytale winced, 

never showing grace,

been frigid ever since. 

I want real love, 

but I'm always cursed,

flowing these words, 

shit aint rehearsed.

Visions in a dark room, 

tears writing this verse,

they'll still be spinning 

while I'm in that hearse. 

Chains cover my lace, 

I hide my tear-stained face,

I'm on the leeward side 

of receiving grace.

Moonlight highlights 

my unwilled tears

seeping in satin

on this rotating sphere. 

Round and round 

my head spins, 

orbiting this body

with no amends. 

Cries rain cacti,

my deserted heart, 

keeping it alive

while I'm falling apart. 

Peace, my war zone, 

facing the front line. 

Fireworks in my head

while spilling rhymes. 

I watch their calm

while I shed tears, 

silence speaks loudest

like fighting and fears. 

I don't ask for much, 

no diamonds or gold,

but to be wanted, 

to have and to hold. 

The fault in my stars,

is it only mine to bare? 

I'll fade into blank space 

where my seams tear. 

Let laughter endure

love I wish I had

as I fade from knowing 

my only better half.