The Waters Edge

I sat down by the waters edge

Felt the breeze against my legs

Dipped my toe, dropped my head

Deemed I’d rather be in bed

How is it so,

I just don’t know

Where did my whole life go?

I question everything I think is mine

Always looking for those other times

Where joyful memories are not dead

And why I keep on feeling dread. 

Silence creeps up from behind,

gently comes into my mind,

to a loving I have longed to find,

here I treat myself so kind,

no more hanging down my head, 

no more wanting to be in bed.

I capture a glimpse of what it's like,
to love myself and not be so blind,
for I have lived all this time,
wanting you was my only crime. Now, I go back to the water's edge,
feel the breeze against my legs,
dip my toe and raise my head.