u & the moon

today i looked up at the moon

and the clouds were making it blurry

but i could still see it

and i knew it was there

that kind of reminded me of u

how ur image isn't really clear to me

but you're in there

ig

somewhere in the world

waiting for me

or maybe i'm the only one waiting

i hope not

but it might be the cold hearted truth

the truth that rn u don't have a care in the world

but i still wait

i wait for the right moment

i keep telling myself that

that moment will only come when i'm 18

at the least

because then i will be more conscious

conscious of my acts

my words

and maybe then i will be able to love u properly

to cherish u

to know what to do

no matter the situation

idk if i was ever in love

maybe i would've been if i wasn't waiting for u

but i won't ever regret that

since u give me standards

u allow me to not get heartbroken

to be independent

truth is

i'm not independent at all

people see me as independent tho

but i depend on relationships way too much

but u allow me to not get used over and over again

u make me strong

and even tho u don't know that yet

(and neither do i)

i already love u

i love all ur quirks

i love all ur right doings and all ur mistakes too

i love ur personality

i love ur physic, ur facial features

but it's not ab the features

it's ab the fact that ily

that sentiment of love allows me to love u

even if idk how u look yet

or how u talk,

how u act or react,

how u are or how u aren't,

i still love u

ily with all my might

and i'm glad that today's blurry moon reminded me of that