Assumptions

I thought it was getting better   
I thought those feelings would soon shatter

But I'm a human always making mistakes
With their deeds my heart rakes

I thought i was getting happier
I thought i was letting go of that fear

Yet still I'm at same spot hovering
As if i hadnt gone away at all

Each time i think back to those times
My tongue ties, heart wrenches at those lines

I thought my efforts now mattered 
I thoughtyou had let go of that hatred

Yet each time i glance into orbs of yours
The loathe in them make my breath hoarse

I thought i was tolerable now
I thought you'd atleast remember me now

I thought my attempts would make you proud
But all you did was hated me out loud

Your each yelling like a blast of wind
Your each raised hand like shock of current

Yet each time i stand there still like a fool
On my whole life its always your rule

Despite this no matter how hard i try
Never enough, my efforts go dry

I'll never be enough, never be enough
But sometimes I..... Donot want to be tough

                                              Nazia zahra