"a love too deep, the love i couldnt keep"

“A love too deep,The love I couldn't keep”

A haze hangs heavy, day by day,

My life, a dream, in shades of gray.

No questions asked, no reasons sought,

This strange facade, internally wrought.

A whisper lingers, low and deep,

That something's broken, secrets keep.

I know it's there, the flawed design,

A twisted root, that won't untwine.

I loved too fiercely, once upon,

My heart exposed, beneath the sun.

A thousand shards, a painful cost,

All that bright passion, shattered, lost.

Then came the warmth, a gentle hand,

A love offered, I couldn't understand.

They stood before me, clear and true,

But love's old magic, wouldn't renew.

I talked to him, a simple joy,

A girl made happy, no longer a boy.

Laughter danced, like sunlit rain,

Friendship bloomed, erasing pain.

We bridged the space, a loving start,

My boyfriend now, with my whole heart.

The talks continued, smiles remained,

But in my soul, a seed of doubt sustained.

A creeping shadow, filled with dread,

Unspoken fears, inside my head.

Questions I posed, with careless ease,

That threatened bonds, and chilling breeze.

I pushed him back, with unseen force,

Ignoring warnings, and the course

Of future happiness, side by side,

My fear, a turbulent, rising tide.

Now clarity dawns, with bitter sting,

He wasn't wrong, he didn't cling

Too tight, or falter, or deceive,

The fault lies solely, I believe,

Within myself, the broken ground,

Where love's true flowers, can't be found.

I poured it out, with reckless grace,

And now I'm empty, in this place.

I loved too much, a burning fire,

Now ashes only, fuel desire

For something real, a love reborn,

But fear remains, since that cold mourn.