An Insidious Illness

Katie B.

I stare through the TV as if it is a window

I write and it is all wrong

Depleted putting up dishes

Intolerant to the pain that forges in my shoulders

Fatigue settles in as if at home

Lost with no hope of being found

Longing for my once upon a time life

Living a life as desolate as the desert floor

Sullen eyes give me away

My blonde hair wild, greasy, my clothes disheveled

I do not care about war, weather, or politics

Clothed in irritability

Bathed in insomnia

My presence is absent

I am but a shell

My fists wail

Waiting is the most formidable

Form of punishment

Hope the other

My brain lies to me

And I believe her

I think about dying

The methods I’d take

The note I’d write

An insidious illness

Lives within

I live without

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  • sorenbarrett

    Powerful it speaks of being drugged with depression where society created troubles overwhelm to the point of giving up. And so it is that society maintains control of the masses with a gas and drug that no one takes responsibility for but those in power gain by. Doped to the point of thoughtlessness the people comply numbly and the economy and politics meander onward. Nicely worded

  • Rachel P

    I love that I can feel every single word in my bones! It gives me chills reading your ending line of "I live without". What a thought-provoking piece here. Thank you for sharing!

    • Katie B.

      Thank you so much for your honest, genuine feedback.

    • Demar Desu - 德马尔·德苏

      We have a lot of in common just based off this poem… masterpiece for sure thank you for sharing

      • Katie B.

        Wow!!! Thank. You for the huge compliment!!!

      • Tristan Robert Lange

        Katie, this is painfully honest… the exhaustion in these lines feels real and unfiltered. The everyday details make the heaviness tangible. When a poem names that kind of inner battle so plainly it takes real courage. Thank you for putting it into words, my friend. Powerfully penned, for sure. 🌹🖤🙏🕯️🐦‍⬛

        • Katie B.

          You give such genuine, detailed feedback. I always look forward to reading your comments. Thank you for taking the time to share what you derive from my work.

          • Tristan Robert Lange

            Wow! I try, my friend. Thank you so much! I look forward to your poems. Have a great weekend, Katie.

          • Goldfinch60

            Very emotive words Katie but each new day will lead to a better life, go forward in harmony.

            Andy



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