My father

You were my father

You were supposed to care

But instead you always beat me up

And you were never there

You were drinking, never thinking

You never listened to me

Despite the way I was brainwashed 

You always loved to hurt me

You were always cruel and cold

And now I'm traumatized

There was always some defect in me

When I looked into your eyes

You were always manipulating

Perverted on layered levels

You ruined my whole teenage-hood

Because I grew up with the devil

Anything I'd say to you you'd mock and contradict

I often got so mad at you cause you were such a dick

You weren't there

You didn't care

And so I drugged myself with porn

You put Satanic marks on me the moment I was born

Every night I lay in bed

afraid of monsters from the dead

Watching me with evil eyes

And grabbing my small child head

I always had to pick myself up

right after you knocked me down

You talked to me like I was stupid

And I was fucking around

I just wanted peace but you always picked a fight

My heart would always sink when you came into my sight

I always had to protect myself from you

so i could survive

I didn't want to be with you cause you were never alive

I thought that you were God

And I was just a sinner

At least you worked so hard for us so we could have our dinners

Sometimes we laughed

Sometimes you gifted

Once in a while the mood was lifted

But it never lasted long enough before I always darkly shifted
Now here I am a wounded man

I wonder; what comes next?

Will you ever see the light?

Or will you take your sins to death?