Sign

A tsunami of profound grief 
coming straight towards me 
yet still...
it's not entirely in sight
I wait 
I wait, with numbness 
I wait with guilt 
I wait with anger 
and I also wait with hope 
that it's over soon
which brings more guilt to my table of digestive nibbles and distaste 
I shan't forget in a hurry 
I promise you this
this one moment
that once again will change me 
changing my life 
my course 
my road...

If the signs are kind 
I may one day find my way
once more.