Anatomy of a Cry

I stare 
eyes glazed
thorns piercing my throat 
trying
to hold it all in 
but once a drop seizes it freedom
theres no going back
no holding back

I cant breathe anymore
my face is adorned with tears
each racing the other
my clothes, dampening 

To cry your heart out
to melt away from your soul
and to know no time
is blissful
differently

Thoughts piling up
unwanted-ly wanted 
i now know no words
all i can do is whimper
and shiver
and wait
till i go deaf and blind
from the emotions

Now here again
I stare 
benumbed
no words could tell
the story the tears 
told one

Trying to find another pain
hoping it would conceal 
the other
a cycle
that continues
on and on