Foggy

I woke this morning and I couldn’t see much
Except the shadows oozing through the window

Shadows that were split by speckled light rays and dusty bits floating aimlessly
My squinted eyes wandered to the window where the sun bounced off foggy water droplets
And a glow of light reminded me of heaven

The remnant of a silhouette breaking the light was there
It was the shape of a woman, walking away from me
Her back turned and she floated steadily
Curly, frizzy hair bounced in slow motion

Her dress reached to the ground and weaved loosely around her
A slight breeze ruffled the dancing fabric
Knee high boots glistened and sparkled underneath

I sensed peace and happiness from her
And it gave me a sense of ease and comfort
In some sort of way

But sadness creeped in and slapped me in the face
Punched my stomach with longing and loss

Familiarity, hurt, comfort, love, shared life, teamwork, all walking away from me
Real time heartache reached into my chest

Ripped and pulled at everything
Our arteries once entwined, once integrated, worked as one
Steered away by fate, or destiny, or whatever word or image you can muster

Fleshy tubes that once carried oxygen rich blood between us, stretch like a rubber band, tearing
Blood spackled on the ground between us
Leaving a sense of life, bond severed, longing, and so much regret
It’s so foggy and I’m doggy paddling into the future