The Comfort I Shouldn’t Need

I am here and I feel nothing

While the world is dying

God gave me a mission

An honest man; I’m never lying

I started watching girls dance

Because it soothed my pain

I’m not happy with how I am

I’m struggling; not insane

Pain erupted all inside me

As I lay there crying

I put the phone out of my reach

No more to watch them flying

I cried so hard from the ache

All I want is to stop hurting

I feel so lonely and so broken

Empty so I watch them twerking

“You’re a Nazi fanboy!”

Insulted him unto his face

I could have refused him

But I gave it to him with grace

In the Book of Matthew

“Lawlessness shall abound..”

“No one respects the cops anymore.”

The truth that I had found

He spoke to me as I served him

That man was discouraged

I wanted to say “I’m so sorry.”

But I was too unfurnished

My parents never taught me anything

Including how to deal with corrupt cops

I have to educate myself

So I can act appropriate when I’m stopped