Hate... is a strong word

I hate him

I despise him

He doesn't care

I hate him 

I despise him

He gives me money to silence me

He uses money as a way to tell me my emotions aren't valid

as if money is everything 

Is he right? Should I just silence myself?

All my interest

All my wants 

All my needs and desires 

He tells me they inconvienence him

What am I here for?

What am I here for?

I thought I was here for love 

It doesn't feel like its for love

Then what is it for?

Why do I do this to myself.

I used to love him

I hate him

I despise him

I wish I could learn to be as selfish as him