I wish..

How good I'm at hiding my feelings,
Wish I was as good at expressing them.

How good I'm at staying silent when hurt,
Wish I was as good at saying it out loud.

How good I'm at blaming myself,
Wish I was as good at seeing their fault too.

How good I'm at suffering alone,
Wish I was as good at asking for help.

How good I'm at questioning my worth,
Wish I was as good at questioning their actions too.

How good I'm at making myself understand,
Wish I was as good at leaving them.

How good I'm at destroying myself,
Wish I was as good at loving myself.

How good I'm at remembering who I used to be,
Wish I was as good at finding her again.

How good I'm at living without affection,
Wish I was as good at asking to be loved.

I wish I was good....