Hmm You will

Up untill now I have held,

my emotions with so much care

Some I can name them

And some I can’t

If I had to tell you,

A story

I wouldn’t  know the first time I carried

But the last time,

Still makes my soul tremble

And I hope I never feel that again

But who am I to decide,

What’s yet to come

Khair,

I’ve always had a hard time,

Figuring me out

That  familiarity feels unfamiliar

I search for answers in people

Only to find more questions within me

I somehow never felt,

Normal around people

And I never will.

If only I could read people,

But glad I can write.

Yet somewhere between

Feeling everything and understanding nothing