Tearing me apart

It's tearing me apart

All from the inside

showe me where to go

Show me how to feel loved

Tell me what to do

Help  me to get better

I cant endure  this pain

any longer

Dying in people's dreams 

Wishing it ain't just fantasy

Drag me outta this hell

Drag me out of bed

Show me life is worth  it

It's tearing me apart

I can't keep going

thinking of evil things

I'm trying to find ways

to cope and let go

sniffing cocaine

making myself bleed

Falling in love with blades

Ain't a healthy thing

Staring at the ceiling

stuck in my own head

Can't get those thoughts away

I'm tearing myself apart

for people who don't care

I wanna be seen

I need the validation

Wanna rot underneath  the dirt

Feel those bugs consuming my heart

Maybe I gotta let go

the thought alone scares me

I don't wanna be alone

so I'm gonna keep tearing myself apart

until only bits of pieces remain