Thoughts of a Troubled Teen

I don’t know why these thoughts choose me

I’m just one of those typical teens

Maybe it’s the way that I’ve been living

Or it could be from smoking greens

I need to quit my habits

By any other means

Before I put a gun to my head

And blow my thoughts to smithereens

I say that no joke

I’m being fucking serious

I’m tired of living a life

Being confused and delirious

I hate going back and forth

This world is mighty mysterious

But I’d only harm myself

I would never be deleterious

Please don’t press my buttons

Cause I can self destruct

And it takes the longest time for me

To finally reconstruct

I was once a bird with free feathers

And they all got plucked

Someone stuck their dick in the world

Because this world got fucked

I don’t mean that shit intentionally

Not everyone out there is terrible

People are just people

Some are good and some are unbearable

Hate and love are strong words

But they both can be comparable

This world isn’t as bad

I just hope that it’s repairable

I’m a bright light

But there are times that I get diffused

I’m an emotional teen

Being emotionally abused

This is not the way I pictured myself

Sometimes I can get confused

Thinking of all of this

Is bad 4 me when I get bemused

It’s a funny thing 2 question

Whether or not I am really awake

I just can’t tell

If I am real or I this is fake

This even makes me wonder

How much more that I can take

It makes my body quiver

And even makes my soul quake

Stop, drop and roll

Cause my lungs are on fire

I put it out with some Yeager

And then I slip in2 desire

I just do this on occasion

It’s not something I require

It’s fucked me over so many times

Some time soon I’ll have 2 retire

I cannot banish my thoughts

I always feel like dying

I’m staring at this issue

I can’t just keep denying

I know I have to make an effort

And dam it I am trying

I could tell you that I’m happy

But I would just be lying

Smoking funny, rolled spices

Makes my eyes and stomach shrink

I’m fine when I’m alone

But act a fool with others when I drink

My mind is so fucked up

I’m sure there is a missing link

These are just my crazy thoughts

What about the things that you think?