Soul Searching

Soul Searching

With nowhere to run

With nowhere to hide

My soul aches with a desperate desire

My soul burns with fire inside

Lost with no directions

No path can be found

Angry with all my lies

Happy with all my sorrows

A fake smile for those who don't know me

Living this life with no one to understand me

I'm searching my heart, hoping to see the light

To release my soul, so I no longer have to fight

My guard is up, this wall can't be climbed

Protected in my own way

Hoping that my knight will rescue me one day

Through the roads of uncertainty

Fields of lies and deceit, my world involves

All alone to take the fall

I'm searching my heart, hoping to see the light

To release my soul, so I no longer have to fight

Tears of sadness, stream down my face

With no one to wipe them away

Screams that cannot be heard

As I try to explain, why I feel this way

No one listens, no one hears

No one cares how I feel

With nowhere to run

With nowhere to hide

I bury my soul, waiting to be freed

Waiting to breathe the air in my lungs

And fill me with a new life.

I'm searching my heart, hoping to see the light

To release my soul, so I no longer have to fight

One day I will find my way through this maze

Find my happiness that has been forever lost

To cherish the moments that time has erased

Recover what has been stolen from me

To recover my freedom

To find my soul that has to be repaired

One day I will no longer be in despair

My search for the truth is never going to end

It's only gotten me to where I don't want to be

It's not making this life easy

It's becoming too hard even for me to understand

Happiness is all I have ever asked for

But I have never received

My life has been a fight, that winning will never be

I look desperately to GOD to show me the way

But no answer, no word, or thought received

I'm searching my heart, hoping to see the light

To release my soul, so I no longer have to fight

By Heather Kasimoff 12/19/2008