My Guardain Angel on Earth

I looked down at my bleeding wrist

All the years of pain now slowly bleeding away

I sent my suicide note to my ex-boyfriend telling him to not forget me

That I loved him

and that I was sorry for all the shit I put him through

that he made the last year of my life worth living

and to not forget he thought me what is was like to love someone

and what it felt like to be loved

As I stared at my bleeding wrist I remembered

all the good

and the bad

times of my life

i remembered meeting my best friend Renae

meeting my other best friend Billi

my seventh birthday party with all my friends

when i met my grandparents in kansas for the first time

when i met my brother dustin

when my mom and dad finally got married

my first boyfriend

my second

my third

my forth

my fifth

when i met him.....

his name was Paul Zaccone

who knew when I first met him he would save my life

he was a boyscout and now a eaglescout

a good catholic boy

a gentalman

my friend

my boyfriend

now my ex boyfriend

MY GUARDAIN ANGEL ON EARTH

i remember how he would hold me

in his strong arms

and i felt safe and loved

when he would joke around with me

when he would tickle me just to hear me laugh

said the most wonderful things just to make me smile

didn't walk away when i cut myself

didn't walk away when i told him i was recovering

from anerxia

and i had been cutting since 8th grade

i told him about my insecurities

about my past with all of my abuse

i told him i loved him

he told me back on our five month anniversy

he knows all the little corky things i do

like i cant go anywhere without my earbuds

i listen to country music

but my favorite band is 3 Doors Down

most importantly

he saved my life

when i was willing to end it

i never believed in angels or gaurdain angels

but know i do believe in them because someone was watching over me

from Heaven

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and Earth