My Experience

I have handled everything life has thrown at me by myself. So it is hard for me to take any help or talk with someone on a deep level. 

I would much rather hear about you, your life, your dreams, and just you.  I'm that person that goes out of my way and beyond for the people I care about, because that's who I am. You could ignore me or betray me and I will still be there for you. 

Many people have told me that I am heartless, due to the fact that I don't show emotion. When inside I am falling apart and my heart is holding on for dear life. 

At a young age I convinced myself that showing emotion, is a sign of weakness. Telling people how I feel or anything about me on a deep level, will leave me vulnerable to getting hurt. So I have a big guard up at all times. 

So when people say I am quiet or don't talk much it's, because I'm afraid to let them in. I'm afraid to let them in because I know they won't stay. 

I am working on this.