A Bad Boyfriend?

A bad boyfriend.

A bad boyfriend is what she says i am.

A bad boyfriend is what im going to be.

No matter how much i try to be decent or perfect it just wont happen.

I want to give honesty, loyalty, romanticness, surprises i want to be that king that you need in your life.

The love i have is UNCONDITIONAL no matter what, if im supposed to be mad i you i cant, when i want to be annoyed by you i cant, when i want to just say whatever and give up i cant. 

Because my love for you is UNCONTIONAL LOVE. 

I talk to people i can go to thats a reliable resource to me because i want and need to keep you in my life. 

I cry, pace, run, talk and everything including praying to GOD because my world is YOU.

I dont care what my past says or what my decisions i have made say. I know deep down inside me YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING.

It hurts to know that you think im a bad boyfriend but you told the truth.

No lie im sitting here crying and wondering, why am i the stupid one. I dont get it at moments no matter what i try to do right for you.

I feel as if there is no way to make you happy and stuff like that. I feel as if your changing toward me. I tell you im scared and need help but i need you by my side.

Because honestly if you werent here on 5.6.14 i wouldnt be here today. 

But i wish there was a way to change how i acted but i cant change my past. But i can control my present and live and do what i need to do as i live now.