Numb

I struggle to breathe
I can't stop the tears from flowing
As the years you by in my memories.
The countless assaults
Verbal
Physical
Emotional
The lies
The torture
And I sit
And I think
And I let them overwhelm me
And slowly
Very slowly
Just before I collapse
I become numb.
My body becomes ice
My brain just a rambling of thoughts.
"You're ugly"
"You're a whore."
"That's all you'll ever be good for."
"You are nothing."
"Always have been."
"Always will be."
And I sink,
No, not sink, drown.
I drown in the voices.
I drown in the memories.
I scream
But no one can hear me in this silence.
It's too deep.
So I drown.
And slowly.
I become numb.