AT ANY TIME IN THE LIFE

Although it occurs at any time in our lives that we meet new persons, there are some people that at any time in our lives we feel meet for the first time always. Even though we will no longer meet each other, there are some such people.

As soon as I entered a university of a big city, the environment of my life absolutely became different from before. The scent of the air and the earth there smelled like completely just after birth.

I came from the country with a longing for the big city. Then young men stronger than I in terms of courage waited for such a lonely boy. They had been born in the big city from the very beginning, and had grown up there, and had many friends in this big city. Soon after entrance to a university, I made friends with some of them.

I am talking about these friends now. It occurs at any time in our lives that we meet new persons. But the encounter in that times are heterogeneous. When I think of those friends, I feel the totally new scent of the air and the earth which smelled that time. There was a natural difference between them and me. It was an illusion that the difference had been got over by becoming friends. Of course, we exchanged the heterogeneous things with each other. These things were about books, about music, about our future and so on. We talked a lot. That is the privilege of the youth. However, the years of younger life of eighteen, nineteen or twenty that were different from each other seemed to be severance.

Because of this severance in the youth, I remember at any time in my life that they are the completely new persons. Recently, and now, I certainly meet new persons and make friends with them. But the difference between these people and me is not felt shocking like that times we were young. Should I call this feeling maturity? Or have my feeling stiffened? I cannot state the reason correctly.

I still remember those old but new friends tonight. Actually it is not only amazing. I also feel something painful. Yes, that severance can be never closed. And the totally new scent of the air and the earth which smelled that time! I think that these things hit me without vanishing away at any time in my life.