Loophole

I cannot complain

It has never been too much fun

I have never enjoyed any of my battles because it has never been a top priority of mine to be able to say that I have won 

Even when I do, it only makes another want to pester me until I am forced to give in and fight again

I have always known when to say when

Then again, I was only ever trying to speak for myself and maybe for those who I were sure we're true lovers, real friends

That may have been the loophole a few times and it may be, indeed, again

Now my thoughts speak only of new times like so many I have come to know before

If I am ever shown the door, I humbly will go

Wishes made by whomever become the only ones that I cannot ever seem to ignore 

I am the curious type, yes, I will admit to that proudly

My mind has become a bit of a busy body, of course, in the past 

But all of the paths I may have chosen incorrectly no longer matter, since I am following one now that leads to friendships and love that will far outlast my pain

I know it seems very odd to most that I won't use an umbrella when I am blessed with the coming of the rain

It is OK to be different

It's OK to not fully understand

It's OK that some forget later in that I have always tried to offer them a helping hand

I won't make any excuses just so that they can feed off the words I choose to speak

I have never boasted about my strengths unless they first attempted to make me feel ignorant or weak

There must be something real about me,  or else i  don't see why they would always seek me out

I guess I am a freak

I know that I am loved

I thank my Creator above at least twice a day

I just want to be an important part of this universe

A messenger of light and love

I apologize in advance for any of you who let themselves be left behind

But I am telling you all you can't follow me any longer if vengeance remains lodged within your mind...

7-19-2015