Criminal Love

Fading from my mind

So slowly, that it seems more like the fading-in of an ethereal entity that I may have called upon to assist me in my bidding

Shitting out the filth from the tear ducts of my eyes

In rivers of sadness that flow like a mass of soldiers, determined to fight some senseless battle

Some unexplained siege 

Taking in all of their surroundings as they swim forward in a swarm of dense motion 

Racing toward an unknown outpost that lies somewhere in the atmosphere up ahead

Taking my mentality along with it as it relentlessly clambers on

He is gone now

Nowhere in sight 

I am really alone

Clairaudience cauterizes my entire being

Just as all of my senses start complaining of his absence, a voice rings through my ears

Crashing through the dark of the night

Sometimes the voices are many

Sometimes there is only one 

For my thoughts, I pay way more than a penny

For my sanity, I must see to it that this battle is soon won

Before I dare step forward and get caught up in something else

There is no room for anymore ifs or maybes

No concept have I to leave anything that I truly love behind me to eat my dust

For few, such s concept is even understood

Their perceptions are animals that are extinct to the animal that lies within me

I will just never understand why the blindness that is inate to another becomes ultimately what sets their souls free

Did I really agree to this life that I have co-written?

Everyone seems so damned smitten by my ways

So. Then why do I find myself sitting here all alone, counting down the hours, the minutes, the days?

Fading into me as my skies above fade to the grey of a perpetual storm

Feeling all warm and fuzzy within

Feeding the seven deadly sins a five star culinary masterpiece of a meal, one course at a time

Doing hard time in a prison that makes Alcatraz look like an island paradise

I have committed way too many crimes against myself in the sacred name of love....

8-31-2009