Letter to my unborn child 👶🏾💙

hey baby girl how you resting up there?
everyday your on my mind.
which brings me to tears.
I think about your big beautiful brown eyes .
and your silky black/ brown bushy hair.
word to ed sheeran " you was just a small bump unborn for 4 months then brought to life "
mummy couldn't wait for you to arrive.
but it felt as if I wasn't ready for a baby.
However, I've been thinking lately.
I was ready Khyla. not only me daddy wasn't ready either.
if I could turn back the hands of time
I would have kept you baby girl cause you was mine.
I would talk to you every morning and night whilst you was tucked up warm inside.
inside mummy's tummy.
having you grow inside me. Man was I lucky
hope you don't hate me. hope you understand me.
love you baby girl rest up and you'll reunite with mummy shortly.
baby girl I pray you watch over mummy, I know that must sound cheeky !
but baby girl you know if I was stable enough I would have kept you.
baby girl you know if my mindset was right i wouldn't have neglected you.
baby girl you know if I was thinking straight I wouldn't have aborted you.

letter to my mother

hey mum, I did hate you for making me grow for so long.
then changing your mind saying " I want this baby gone " mum that was wrong. I'm 16 now did you know that ? do you remember my birthday ? when I saw myself laying there lifeless boy was I sad.
but I've learned to forgive but I will never forget. cause trust me ma this is something your bound to regret.
trust me I would have been your blessing in disguise.
but now I'm your blessing high in the sky.