Let Her Go

My fourteen year old self, 

Sitting on a bench,

Like there is nothing else,

And she came along , 

The angel that changed my world,

So beautiful and strong,

I know I'll never be that girl, 

She stayed there with me when she didn't have to,

She told me that It'll be okay even when I didn't believe it.

And no, she wasn't  from a family that was good, 

Just a good girl raised In the hood.

She was unlike anyone I've ever met, 

The best and most smart yet, 

Dark skin, 

Short black hair,

Skinny as a bone,

Tattoos everywhere.

The last time I saw you ,

You seemed so lively,

But it seems like I should be the one dead, 

 Since I live more hazardously,

It was June 28th, 2015,

When her old apartment, 

Turned Into a crime scene.

When I first heard the news,

I was too shocked to cry,

But after reality set In, 

I just didn't want to say goodbye, 

So much trouble realizing she was gone,

Shaking,

Emotions breaking,

Too hard to move on.

Just wish I could've called her one last time, 

Wish I could've been able to see her wedding day, 

Wish I could've repaid her for everything, 

But now there's nothing left to say, 

Why'd You have to let the best one go? 

Why'd she have to die in a horrible way? 

Why'd couldn't I have seen her once more? 

Why couldn't I hear her say "its okay."?

I pray she rests in peace, 

And I'll never forget her, 

Never will be another one like her,

I hope she's happy now, 

And maybe she'll see me, 

Maybe when I die,

I'll see her again, 

She was so hard to get over,

Her memories will stay with me forever, 

But I have to go on with life so, 

I'm just gonna have to let her go...