Pretending

Even through messages 

I catch myself forcing a smile 

Though you can't see me 

I just can't let the facade drop 

I can't let anyone see 

I'm supposed to be so goddamn perfect 

So happy all the damn time 

I live a charmed life 

Didn't you know? 

Everything a girl could possibly want 

Or so it seems 

I live in a world of fake smiles 

Pretty watches to hide the blood 

Cold porcelain after too much food 

Because a girl's gotta keep her figure, right? 

The colors 

The gaudiness 

The glitter 

They all hide the truth 

And I'll go on smiling 

Pretending 

Even after I'm dead.