I Wonder

And I wonder what he sees 

When he looks into my eyes 

After he tells me he loves me 

And I just look at him 

Or when he kisses me 

And I just sit there 

But I don't stop him...

I wonder if he sees 

The emptiness I feel 

In my eyes 

When I let him have his way with me 

But turn away when he says 

He wants to marry me. 

I used to love him 

I really did. 

Before things went bad 

Before he started hitting me 

And sleeping around 

And telling me he'd kill me. 

And I guess, 

In a way, 

He did. 

Because 

Now all I am 

Is dead inside.