Ghost Host

He is still a ghost

that hides in my head

Under the tongue he once tasted

Wasted away, our love

Reasons, unknown, at least to me

Haunted every now and then

When he takes a hold of my soul

I gasp for air

In my agony that he never seemed to care much about

I often wonder if he even cared for me at all

I fall to pieces, still, to this day

An exorcism would not take him away

I was so sure that I never wanted to see him go

This is not at all what I had in mind

I would rather just let him go completely

I do not only want to be with him in memories and in dreams that seem  surreal

I don't know what it is that I feel anymore

I just know that I feel immensely

This ghost refuses to allow me to heal

From open wounds, it drinks my core

Torn apart by the brutal hands of fate

In my darkest night travels, I search for him and his gate

I believed him always when he told me such crazy tales and now I believe him even more

Keeper of the hidden lore written in ancient texts

Brought into this world and turned upside down

Thus, we both encounter this hex that is upon him

Invoking beings that have crawled all over and around me and have ruined everything that I have touched

It seems sickening to love someone as much as I love him

I always will

It is not something as simple as being born ill-fated

An egg from the dark ages

Incubated and hatched then it's contents attached themselves to the 

shadows that surround us all

Lucky me to have fallen so deeply in love....

9-1-2010