The walls were closing in on me.
Frustrated and furious significantly.
A grey cloud of despair, can't you see it in the air?
Where are you right now? You said you would always be there.
As the emptiness filled the atmosphere.
Anxiety grew so heavy and thick.
That I become Feeble and sick.
Overtaken by Outrage
Depression and I became engaged.
The sickness of guilt and shame filled my brain.
I've tried but I can't maintain.
Drunken with Rejection followed by a shot of oppression.
What if something gave me a motive
to end my life without further notice?
What would life be like if I wasn't around ?
would my kids and Family be happy or would they frown?
Living life so miserably
Like an inmate in prison not being free.
Stuck Like a Tree who's roots were intertwined into the ground.
Restricted, bound and beaten down.
I'm locked in.
Life's got me pinned.
I just can't seem to Win.
I'm Feeling like committing an unforgivable sin.
If you're reading this you are already too late
From the Premises of this cold lonely world I had to evacuate.
After so many had me crucified,
Just as my dreams have now so will I,
On the inside, I just gave up and died.
This a note of Suicide.
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So Raw and relatable. A very Beautiful piece
Thank you
Ohhhh SWEETHEART ~ Spiritual Suicide is in someways worse than Physical Suicide' In the latter you just give up on life in the former your give up on GOD ! Count your Blessing ANGEL and you will see just how much GOD loves you and has given you ! Your are bright ~ sassy and a Mother of lovely Children ~ You have Friends and a Family who care for and if you belong to a Church a whole Congregation lifting you up before the throne ! Lots of Members at MPS love you and you know I love you and pray for you 24/7. The words you use in your awesome and heart rending poem ~ ring a bell and often we feel like ~ or actually give up on GOD. BUT in my experience GOD IS LOVE and is always ready to forgive and welcome us back under his sheltering rings. Thanks for sharing it instructs us how to pray for you ! Love and HUGS ~ Your faithful friend ~ BRIAN XOX
Thanks Im ok just expressing my feeling with words and a pen because I have no one to talk to.
Thanks SWEETHEART ~ there is a lot of angst in your poem and writing about it is a release ~ OK. When you write from the heart(feelings with words) it reaches out to all of us. Some of us feel guided to write back to you ~ in support of a very Lovely Lady ! Love and Hugs ~ BRIAN
A very similar piece to what I would write. It holds a dark atmosphere, but it's captivating in it's ability to present the emotions of the author. A great poem.
Thanks
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