Caught In A Cross Fire

I'm caught in a cross fire of wanting to live & wanting to die

I don't know why so I lie & say I'm fine

People make me feel crazy

Belittling my thoughts & emotions

Making me feel unheard, I must be absurd

My mind rattles & shakes

Trying to make sense of who I am & what I want                      

The nights haunt & keeps my memories playing like a movie  

They taunt & say you'll never be fine

How devine it would be to feel happy  

How devine it would be to be heard  

Will I be okay for once?  

I grab hold of what I got left

Turn it into distortion & a mess

The door's right there, so why don't I go walk away?    

Fading into nothing & aching from bones breaking

I am shaking

I am not alright