No Eternity In Time

I try to embrace life.....

but I'm always above,not meaning high.....

but feeling dead.....

going where the deceased go..... 

within the sky.....

Then I try to come back down to earth...

but its so hard when i keep ascending into my deceased mind...

trying to see where my kind lies....

in between the dead and living.....

returning to the fight....

within my heart I try to find......

But I'm always above the clouds....

falling back to the ground.....

with a pain in my chest that leaves my heart to pound...

But without a sound....

I scream inside....

trying to find the pieces of my life that can't be found...

cuz there's so much to build.... 

in the life I live.....

But how long can I deal with this pain that seems to come around....

its always following me throughout,like a stubborn kid.....

I just want to be left alone from this stubborn emotion....

coming to then leaving me with erosion.....

I seem to always rot....

my time is running out though.....

eternity doesn't live within a clock.....

my agony seems to be the only thing time has brought....

but where's that optimism....

that I had that was once possible...

but doesn't seem to exist...

maybe its dead.....

probably somewhere else...