Silence

V.Hope

Silence is my struggle

That internal monster that gnaws away at my mind

Keeping me blind to the fact that it's all in my head

Telling me to be silent, when I should be loud

When I should be proud

Of me

Of who I am and who I want to be

My mouth is stitched up and I can't seem to say a word

But my mind is screaming at me to speak up

And say something

Anything

And show everyone I am here and I am here to stay

I look around and I see these people

I see these people who find it so easy to speak

They use their mouths like finely tuned instruments

And they're the musician

The musician who plays a beautiful symphony

I envy the music that they can make

When I use mine, it sounds foreign and strange

A cacophony, you could say

And so I never play

The silence

The monster

The jungle that is my mind

Keeps my sounds, the people, everything away

And it makes sure the stitches 'round my mouth stay tight and secure

It keeps the world just beyond my grasps

And so I never get to explain

How much I want them to stay

You see, I don't think you understand

Everybody tells me 

 "Just speak!"

"It's easy"

My reply is this:

"I WISH it was so easy"

But I say this in my head

Not aloud

Because I'm sure you know by now

It's never out loud

Always in my head

Just out of reach of my lips

In my head, Where it all stays

Locked away by that monster

That monster that constantly feeds all my insecurities

So now you know the truth

Feel free to judge and criticize me

I won't say anything

 

 

  • Author: V.Hope (Offline Offline)
  • Published: September 30th, 2016 20:32
  • Category: Unclassified
  • Views: 41
  • Users favorite of this poem: Adara
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  • Adara

    Wow! Beautiful poetry and it describes your (mine, too!) feelings so well.

    • V.Hope

      Thank you Andara. It's nice knowing that their is people who share the same feelings as I do.

    • Rosie904

      I've given up on the hope of communication but I get your feelings. Your poem is so smooth 🙂

      • V.Hope

        Thank you!

      • Jeff

        Very well written....an excellent write....great job

        • V.Hope

          Thanks! I appreciate it.

        • P.X. Vexxus

          We all have our demons, and our insecurities. They can tear us up inside, break us and shape us. We live in a world where we are constantly judged for our actions. Thank you for sharing the silence within you, I will never judge.

          • V.Hope

            Very true. I've been wanting to share this poem fro a while and I'm glad that I finally did. It feels like some of the weight has been lifted of my shoulders. Thank you for your response. It means a lot.



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