Survivor

Adara

 

 

Lost innocence, it describes me
Perfectly.
And brokenness', it weighs on me
Every day.
The chains you chained me with,
They bind me still.
I run and hide but can't
Escape it all.
You controlled me,
You control me still.
If life were fair you'd be dead
It isn't;
You live in my head.
I want it all to go away
Just breathe and it's all
Okay.
I guess I'll never be
Really free.

  • Author: Adara (Offline Offline)
  • Published: September 30th, 2016 20:46
  • Comment from author about the poem: This poem is me "speaking" to the man who sexually abused me as a young child. I wrote it in a state of hopelessness, anger and fear.
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 125
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Comments6

  • Augustus

    This is a very nice poem. I can't imagine the horror you went through. Yes he deserves to be dead. Sending you messages of peace, confidence, pride, and strength.

    • Adara

      Thank you Augustus! I appreciate the feedback.

    • Rosie904

      When in emotional pain words just flow into you, Dont they?
      One thing I would take out is the "every day" but I read it in my own tone so idk. Its a good one though. I had a similar experience so your poem ached my heart a bit.

      • Adara

        Yes, that's very true Rosie. Normally, I journal my feelings -- but at the time, the poetry came to me. Thanks for the suggestion, I'll see if I feel it should be cut out. And I'm sorry for what you have been through as well! Xx

      • Rosie904

        I change my mind. Every day fits. Depends how I read it. And Dont worry I beat that boy u.. Hey, I journal too. If I Dont I will literally think thoughts in my sleep, haha.

        • Adara

          Yah, I can't think of another rhythm than the one I had when writing it..hahah. Good for you!

        • BRIAN & ANGELA

          WELCOME ADARA ~ Thanks you for sharing a very personal first poem. I trust you found writing cathartic. It moved me and made me ashamed to be a Man. My MUM tught me to treat Ladies as ANGELS and I always do. Men who abuse young girls should be castrated and shut way from society. I do understand how you feel and you have expressed it poignantly, Broken ~ chained ~ no escape ~ controlled ~ never free. I'm praying that you will find some release ~ Yours BRIAN

          • Adara

            Hey Brian, thank you! I did find it cathartic -- writing has always been an outlet for me 🙂 don't feel ashamed for being a man, because it's not always men who abuse anyway. Your mum sounds like a wonderful lady 😊 thanks for the kind comment!

            • BRIAN & ANGELA

              Thanks ADARA my comment was fro my heart to yours. Thanks for your kind response and for being my FRIEND ~ Yours BRIAN

            • Jeff

              A very well written poem...great job

              • Adara

                Thank you Jeff!

              • P.X. Vexxus

                The world is wrought with pain, fear and suffering. I write about the darkness in this world, the effects on people I once knew. I liked your poem a lot, and I hope you are no longer haunted by your past. Thanks for sharing, such deep emotions.

                • Adara

                  Hey Dillan, I'll check out your poems! Thank you. I am in the healing process, but not anywhere near completely healed. I am often still haunted by my past, but one day I hope it is just a bad memory. Thanks for the feedback 😊



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