Haunted

I wish that I could tame this vicious beast that lives within me

I am just so sick of being put last

When I fall, I fall fast and hard

When I love, I am relentless

There is no in between

No grey area

No holds barred

Perhaps that is why my body is so scarred

There is nothing I can do to change the way that I am

I have grown up quite a bit since the first time and the last time that I fell

I even have wished them all well with their new flings

It is hard to admit how hard that slap to the flesh stings me

I don't want to feel

I don't want to care

There is nothing wrong with being there

In the eye of the hurricane

To take control of the reigns

To be a lady but not a snobbish bitch is quite a contrast

Forgetting about the past only comes when there really has been a change in the now

It amazes me how few people know how their hearts work

I can't pick a topic and talk about random crap

I like to do everything on point

Straight forward

Full swing

no resting

No tip-toeing

No taking short cuts

No talking about what's going on with everyone other than ourselves

Gossip is an animal that has a pussy- not a cock

Idle chit-chat

Useless noise

Stories

Small talk

Poppycock

I want to learn how to truly live and let live

I want not to be jealous, envious, angry, cruel, or vain

I feel like I am being driven slowly insane sometimes

Then, suddenly my power kicks me into gear

Back in the saddle

In control again

Haunted am I by spirits of all shapes, sizes, genders, races, creeds

I make sure that my needs are met at all times

But, then I consider all of my spirit friends and I wonder if they are who come up with all of my random cravings

Hear my requests

Save my goals

Create my urges

Come up with my desires

My sensibility purges and perspires out all of the dramatics

The undertones that plague the crowd and torment the brain

That taunt us into wanting to kill bitches

Cutting open wounds that are dressed with the stitches that outwit time

Everything aforementioned are crimes that are punishable by law and enforcement upon them has been and is now and will be happening with much greater intensity in the future

I will be haunted one way or another forever

It is all about learning mutual respect and not going overboard with the use of my power

It can all devour you in the wink of an eye and there is no turning back then

It helps to remain true to yourself and be honest, proud, and rightfully true to only you

Haunted by a state of refined grace

Haunted more is the body that moves than the one who sits stationary in one place....

10/7/2016