Disappointment

I see the disappointment in your eyes and it crushes my spirit. 

You are  were the only one that believed in me. 

I am human. I am not perfect. I make mistakes. 

But I suppose you only gave me so many chances 

and now its clear. 

You only supported me and believed in me when I was doing well 

and now that I am not you have pulled back from me. 

Cutting me off. 

The disappointment and my short comings are clear now 

looking into your hazel eyes. 

I have apologized countless times 

but I shouldn't have had to. 

You have made me feel lesser than what I am. 

You have pointed out my every flaw and flaunted it in my face.

And now you expect me to okay.

I am not okay. I have not been okay for a long time. 

You can only judge and criticize someone for so long 

Now the damage is done.

I do not look into the mirror and see the good qualities 

I look in the mirror and see every flaw, every imperfection. 

You have controlled me like a puppeteer controls his marionettes 

I have forgotten what it feels like to live care free and to live my life as my own.