Drunk

One year of sobriety thrown away after smothering in to days pain

My words are beginning to blur and slur as if I were actually speaking

I have finally silenced the screams

I just had to give in

oh I just know I will be ashamed once I come back down

But for now I will be satisfied in this quiet room with no sound 

as I let these drunk words spill from my mouth like the odor of the liquor on my breath 

I have finally put him to rest that side of my brain the voice of logic telling to not give into my pain

but I did it anyways

I just had to let my sorrows drown in this bottle

cause I cant see a better tomorrow beyond this day

maybe these stains will be lifted once the rain dissipates

but until then I will enjoy the relief away from my pain

As I let this alcohol pump through my veins