Can't Stop

Tears fall and blind my eyes

I clench my chest in pain

My breathing starts to stop

What comes to mind is his name

I'm gasping for some relief 

Feeling like I am dieing

Can't stop the hurt

Can't stop this crying

All I repeat is "I love him"

I'm blinded by these tears

Screaming out "where did you go?"

We were best friends for years             

I can feel the hugs he used to give  

Smell the scent he always carried

The constant need for his company  

Trying not to let things get buried

Thinking of him makes me puke

The stress makes me sick

How can someone so sweet turn into such a complete dick? 

No matter how much I plead    

Things won't magically change

I'm sorry you existed in my life

Guess we will remain estranged