It Was All Just an Act

Once_In_A_While_

She woke up every day and put on her mask,

Because that was what people expected,

What they wanted to see,

her with her disguise

Because no one wanted the truth, they wanted her lies

But she too wanted to hear her lies,

To wear her mask

Because sometimes she could fool even herself

She had played this part for so long that she had lost herself in it

Numbness faded and gave way to joy and blissful ignorance 

Even if only for a moment she could feel something other than pain

But the truth always found her 

It knocked her off her feet and stole her pride,

Drug her to her bed and suffocated her in the sheets

She would cry and scream, but no one came

She was alone, 

With her fears and her lies 

Sometimes she would reach desperately for her mask that hung on the door 

But it was too far,

she gave in 

like she always did, 

To the truth, 

To her reality

Because she knew that the next morning the lie would once again engulf her

Surround her with its poison, 

Intoxicate her with its sweet scent,

Create the delusion she craved.

Because that mask and the lies were what she lived for 

What pulled her from her nightmares

And kept her from ending it all

But she always knew in the dark corners of her mind

That it was all just an act

  • Author: Eli (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: November 15th, 2016 17:10
  • Comment from author about the poem: The past few months have probably been the most difficult of my life, and the worst part is that I don't know when it will get better. This poem means a lot to me because even if it was for just a short amount of time, it helped to me to feel a little better. I guess I wrote this to let others know that everyone, no matter what your going through, has moments in life where they feel like they won't make it. You just have to put on a brave face and know that in time (even if you don't know when) it will all get easier.
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  • BRIAN & ANGELA

    WELCOME CLAIRE ~ THANKS FOR SHARING YOU VERY POIGNANT FIRST POEM ~ i TRUST YOU FOUND IT CATHARTIC. We can all empathise because we all put on a mask and hide behind it. However reading between the lines (and your comment) makes me realise that my experiences are much less than yours ! I am pleased you assure us that it can and will get easier ~ Thank you ~ Every Blessing ~ Thinking of you BRIAN (UK)

    • Once_In_A_While_

      Thank you for the warm welcome! I have always enjoyed writing poetry, but never shared it. Receiving feedback is most definitely new to me, but so far I'm enjoying it 😀

    • Tony36

      Great and wonderful write

    • willyweed

      wow, many will relate to this well written work. welcome I hope to read much more, get busy ww.

      • Once_In_A_While_

        Thank you! That is definitely something I love about poetry, it is often open to interpretation, making it relatable to many.



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