Speak

The worst part about having anxiety 

is not being able to acknowledge you

have anxiety because thinking about anxiety 

causes anxiety. 

I can't pinpoint the exact moment I started having anxiety

because I don't feel anxiety just appears,

but instead builds up like a volcano 

exploding when all the stress has

reached max capacity

and floods your organs like the streets of Pompeii 

with panic attacks and suicide. 

My mind is like a swimming pool

only it's filled with darkness and pain

instead of sunshine and cool, wet

feelings of being content. 

But my mind is not tangible 

and can be argued doesn't exist

and therefore cannot be sick.

But my brain,

my brain is paralyzed by sick

because it IS tangible and it CAN'T be argued doesn't exist

because I have held a brain.

I have felt it. 

But in reality, my brain isn't paralyzed.

It's fully functioning,

so much so that it's on full alert,

constantly ticking.

But my mind, 

my mind has to exist.

But since it controls my thoughts,

it would be better if it didn't. 

J.B Watson argued our mind is connected to our vocal chords.

Which makes sense because my mind is so sick

and I can't speak.